Smiling

For those who walk by

I may flash a smile

That is all they take.

But you walk my way,

And call my name

You take all of me.

So I sit here

In silence.

In lonliness, in wanting,

Thinking of times

When smiling was ongoing.

^_^

Troy Band Camp Is Tomorrow!!!!

Alright SOTS!!!!

4

There are four days until Band Camp!! My family & I will actually go up to Troy the day before to stay the night. I have been packing the last couple of days here & there, but not to worry, I don't have much to take with me besides clothes & shoes. I have a couple of posters that I might take but I'm not sure just yet. But I guess it's good that I'm not taking a bunch of stuff with me. I'll be too busy with keeping up with my school work/grades & Band to really have time to do anything else. I probably should go finish packing up my stuff. Adios mis amigos!



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14

Is the number of days that I have left until Troy Band Camp! I'm really excited about it. I have my marching shoes (white) & gloves (black). I'll pay for the uniform, helmet, & shirt when I get there. I will be staying with some girls that play Piccolo in SOTS. I'm so blessed to have a place to stay while I'm up there. They don't really know me & they took me in. God is awesome! I still need some more shorts & t-shirts for camp. But I'll get those this weekend. Anywho, I have stuff that I need to take care of. Until next time...


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SOTS!!!

So in 25 days I'll be going to the SOTS Band Camp!!! Band Camp will be from August 3rd through August 9th. Classes will begin on the 11th! I'll be getting my degree in Music Education ( Instrumental ). I'm really stoked about the whole thing. It's almost surreal I guess you could say. I just ordered my marching band shoes & gloves! I'll pay for the actual uniform, helmet, & Band shirt at Band Camp. Excited to see what the show will be. ^_^ On a somewhat different note (tee hee), I should really try to post more stuff on here. So much has happened in the past couple of months, it's crazy really. Well, I need to get some sleep now. Need to practice my Trumpet tomorrow and go run and then off to work from 2-8. So until next time....

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I damaged your heart
You walked away in silence
My heart is in longing.

February 20,2010....

I turned 20 today! It's kind of weird because I really don't feel any older. But it's still cool! Tonight my family & I went to eat dinner at Logan's in Dothan.Well they wished me a happy birthday by having me stand on top of a chair so EVERYONE in the place could see me, & then had them yell Yee-Haw! I was very nervous & shaking a little the entire time while atop the chair. But it was fun anyway. :) I'll put up pictures of my cake later. Until then...


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It All Started About 3 Years Ago...

So...I have Diabetes. I don't remember if I've already mentioned it before, so if I haven't....now you know.I was diagnosed when I was 16, during marching band season. I'm pretty sure the date was August 27, 2006. I had been feeling weak and tired prior to actually finding out what was really happening. I remember not being able to butter my toast the morning before getting diagnosed. That was pretty scary. Anywho...so when I found out the next morning, I started crying. I was thinking, "why me?", "What did I do wrong?" , and so on. After the whole shock factor calmed out a little, I told myself, "Hey, I can take control of this. I've got the power!" So I did quite well for awhile. And then one day it seemed, I just stopped. I didn't want to face the reality that I had Diabetes. Didn't want to stick myself anymore. Didn't want to take another shot. When this happened, everything went down hill. I would lie about where my blood sugars were, not take any shots or glucophage(pill), & wouldn't check my blood sugars. I just ate whatever I wanted & didn't do anything else. That was a HUGE no-no. I was put in the hospital for a couple of days. When I got out, I did what I was suppose to & everything was good. Well, then I would go back to the "not going to deal with it" phase. (Ugh! Even now I start to cry because I feel SOOO stupid for royally screwing up.) So in the past 2 years I've been in the hospital 2 or 3 times(can't remember which) because I didn't want to deal. Well, now I am trying to get back on track with my Diabetes. I really need to take care of myself. I want to live past 25 or 30. So I need to start checking my blood sugar everytime I eat something, take the correct amount of insulin and exercising. I'm going to try really hard to get everything in line now.

I just checked my BGL ( Blood Glucose Level ) & it's 67. That's low for me, so I'm going to have some popcorn and hopefully it will bring it up to a good level. If not, I'll find some sugar drink & only have a little bit.

Anyway, my A1C is currently 9.4, which is still high for a Diabetic. A good A1C is 6 0r even a low 7. I go back to my Endocrinologist February 18 to have a follow up. My goal now is to have my A1C in the 8's. It will be very hard for me because I like the carby stuff, but i know I can do it. With my family & God behind me, I believe I can do it.

I will try to post stuff up showing my progress. PLEASE keep me in your prayers (To whomever actually reads my blogs). And for all the other fellow Diabetics, if you have any advice, words of wisdom, tips, whatever...it would be much appreciated. I feel beside myself in this, because I don't really know anyone else that's in the same little canoe as I am. Well, that is all I guess.

Take care of yourselves & Live Life.

Isn't He Cute?? :)

Are They Trying to Start a Paranoia?

You know they have taken this a little to far when........

Fun Things To Do In The Elevator

* You can find this and other fun things to do at http://www.ahajokes.com/

• Make race car noises when anyone gets on or off.


• Blow your nose and offer to show the contents of your Kleenex to other passengers.


• Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering: "Shut up, all of you just shut UP!"


• Whistle the first seven notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.


• Sell Girl Scout cookies


• On a long ride, sway side to side at the natural frequency of the elevator.


• Shave.


• Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside ask: "Got enough air in there?"


• Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear yours upside-down.


• Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.


• When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.


• Lean over to another passenger and whisper: "Noogie patrol coming!"


• Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake and ask them to call you Admiral.


• One word: Flatulence!


• On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the shaft go "plink" at the bottom.


• Do Tai Chi exercises.


• Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then announce: "I've got new socks on!"


• When at least 8 people have boarded, moan from the back: "Oh, not now, motion sickness!"


• Give religious tracts to each passenger.


• Meow occasionally.


• Bet the other passengers you can fit a quarter in your nose.


• Show other passengers a wound and ask if it looks infected.


• Sing "Mary Had a Little Lamb" while continually pushing buttons.


• Holler "Chutes away!" whenever the elevator descends.


• Walk on with a cooler that says "human head" on the side.


• Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce"You're one of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.


• Burp, and then say "mmmm....tasty!"


• Leave a box between the doors.


• Ask each passenger getting on if you can push the button for them.


• Wear a puppet on your hand and talk to other passengers "through" it.


• Start a sing-along.


• When the elevator is silent, look around and ask "is that your beeper?


• Play the harmonica.


• Shadow box.


• Say "Ding!" at each floor.


• Lean against the button panel.


• Say "I wonder what all these do" and push the red buttons.


• Listen to the elevator with a stethoscope.


• Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers that this is your "personal space."


• Bring a chair along.


• Take a bite of a sandwich and ask another passenger: "Wanna see wha in muh mouf?"


• Blow spit bubbles.


• Pull your gum out of your mouth in long strings.


• Announce in a demonic voice: "I must find a more suitable host body."


• Carry a blanket and clutch it protectively.


• Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.


• Wear "X-ray Specs" and leer suggestively at other passengers.


• Stare at your thumb and say, "I think it's getting larger."


• If anyone brushes against you, recoil and holler "Bad touch!"

Quotes....

The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious,
it seems, takes longer. -Edward R. Murrow

A friend is one before whom I may think aloud.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Men are not prisoners of fate, but only prisoners of their own minds.
-FDR

Learn to write your hurts in the sand & to carve your blessings in stone.
-Anonymous

Politics is war without bloodshed. -Mao Tse-tung

Too much agreement kills a chat. -Eldrigde Cleaver

Everybody is ignorant, only on different subjects. -Will Rogers

Impossible is a word to be found in the dictionary of fools.
-Napolean Bonaparte

Fall seven times, stand up eight. -Japanese Proverb

Don't think there are no crocodiles because the water is calm.
-Malayian Proverb

The purpose of life is a life of purpose. -Robert Bryne

All life is an experiment. -Ralph Emerson

Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times. -Anonymous

Es tan corto el amor, Y tan largo el olvido.
(Love is so short, & forgetting is so long.) -Pablo Neruda

I can't take a well-tanned person seriously. -Cleveland Amory

Swallow your pride, you will not die, it's not poison. -Bob Dylan

Shall I crack any of those old jokes, master, At which the
audience never fail to laugh? -Aristophanes

I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with
the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most
important moments. -Jim Morrison

Do vegetarians eat animal crackers? -Unknown

Welcome to the Church of Holy Cabbage. Lettuce pray. -Unknown

Life expectancy would grow by leaps & bounds if green vegetables
smelled as good as bacon. Doug Larson

Fatigue is the best pillow. -Ben Franklin

Consciousness: that annoying time between naps. -Unknown

There is no feeling, except the extremes of fear & grief, that does not
find relief in music. -George Eliot

A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write
if he is to be ultimately at peace with himself.

In music the passions enjoy themselves. -Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

Music is the art which is most nigh to tears & memory. -Oscar Wilde

You are the music while the music lasts. -T.S. Eliot

Music is what feelings sound like. -Unknown

Play the music, not the instrument. -Unknown

The good times of today are the sad thoughts of tomorrow.
-Bob Marley

It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished
work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced.
-Abraham Lincoln

There is no great genius without some touch of madness. -Seneca

Time, the devourer of all things. -Ovid

A cold needs the cook as much as the doctor. -Scottish Proverb

A child may have too much of his mother's blessing.
-Scottish Proverb

What may be done at any time will be done at no time.
-Scottish Proverb

Better be ill spoken of by one before all than by all before one.
-Scottish Proverb

( Insert Twilight Zone Music Here ).....

I was going to post this much earlier, but I had to go to work. So anyway, this is the 2nd time in a row that I have gotten up around 4:30 when I have to work the morning shift, which starts at 8:00. Why my body has to wake up that early, I don't have a clue. I have to go to Destin on Monday for training with CVS. But I'm working at the one in Chipley!!!! Sometimes I really don't understand why things are the way they are. I asked Raymond how it went and he told me that they pretty much just watched some videos and signed/filled-out some paperwork. Yeah 5 hours of thrillage. By the way, I have to be there at 9 a.m. and go until 2. On a lighter more happier note, Ashley & Daniel's Engagement Party went quite well. It was filled with ornaments, mexican food, and frosting. Oh! And tomorrow I get to play at a church that the music is a little to high for me right now. First of all, I haven't really played/practiced on my trumpet like I should, so I'm not were i was back when I was in the Chipola Jazz Band. And Secondly, I am always put on 1st part. Like this go around for instance. The notes get to be crazily high and the rhythms are a little ridiculous. I'm not having fun with it at all. But I still have to play tomorrow. So me whinning isn't really doing me any good. Oh well..... Until next time.

Just An Update....

So I'm done with my class at Chipola. I am still in the Troy Dothan Community Band. Our last Christmas Concert is tomorrow night at 7 p.m. in the Food Court at the Dothan Mall. I'm going to an awesome class called Zumba. Matthew is going to be back in Florida on the 18th! He'll be here about 2 weeks, which is really cool! I am now employeed at CVS!!! I work as a cashier. It has been pretty good so far. Other than that, things have been ok. Well.......until next time.




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La Fajita......

La Fajita

Se volvio loca,

Ella se comio el pollo,

Con lechuga Y tomate!

So I Found Out....

That unfortunately, up in the mountains there isn't internet. I know, stupid me. I just didn't think about it. But I talked with my Aunt, and she said that she uses the library. SO, I'll shall be going over there to post stuff. She also said that the trees have turned colors. HUZZAH!!!!! It might even snow! So I'm oober excited. Oh, I FINALLY found my charm bracelet today. I have been looking for it forever! It was in my leather jacket. It has my emergency symbol on it saying that I'm a Diabetic. The other one is the charm that came with the bracelet. I'm going to get a Trumpet charm put on it soon...(hopefully).

So Guess What.....

I'll be here October 28th!!!! The Blue Ridge Mountains!! My great aunt and uncle have a cabin up there, so I'm riding up with my grampa on Wednesday and we'll come back Sunday late. My aunt and I will probably do some different things while up there. I'm oober excited!!! I'll post more about it when the time comes. So until then, live life and enjoy the amazing weather.

I wrote this when I was 12....

When the rain outside,

Is touching my face,

You stand to the side,

In that uncalm place.


Now as you can see,

I stand here alone,

To me I feel free,

To be here as one.


Now come stand with me,

From under the tree,

To be in the rain,

In this open plain.

Here.........

This is where I want to be with you. In a perfect world, I would like to go to someplace like this with you. Here, we could step on all of the crisp leaves, like we did in a simpler time. But because it isn't a perfect world all there is, is a photograph.

So Guess What......

First of all, I LOVE my Ashley! I am happy to say that I am going to be her Maid of Honor!!!!!! I have never been a Maid of Honor before. I have been a bridesmaid once for my friends Trent & Jennifer, but that is it. I am oober excited!!! I think that she wants the bridesmaid dresses deep green color, most likely emerald. Which, that color looks good on a lot of people. I'm ready to start my duties! Miss Ashley Funderburke is getting married to Daniel Carter. I thought it was cool that both couples that I had and will see get married, I've know both the bride and groom because they are all good friends. That's another thing........when I get married(only God knows when that is) I want the man I marry to be not only my husband, but also my best friend. That's what I see in Trent & Jennifer and Ashley & Daniel's relationship. A friendship, and that's what I hope for. I believe that God will send the right guy for me. A man that will love me no matter how goofy or weird I am(hopefully he is equally weird). Someone who knows who they are and knows who God is, and is strong in both areas. Oh, whomever you are be prepared. I am a diabetic and so that takes some money. I have luckily found that I can purchase my needles for $9.00 and my Glucophage for $4.00. So we're covered there. :D But seriously, I just want someone who will love me for me and all that goes with it. Because if you have to change yourself to be with someone, then honestly, they aren't the One. So changing the subject completely, I made a 95 on my 1st quiz in my computer class, and I actually talked to some people in it. You might think,"So what?" But I am one to not really talk or open up to people I don't know. I'm doing better, but its a slow process. I have a few close friends that I act like a complete dork around but other than that,...you will probably have to start the conversation.

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