I damaged your heart
You walked away in silence
My heart is in longing.

February 20,2010....

I turned 20 today! It's kind of weird because I really don't feel any older. But it's still cool! Tonight my family & I went to eat dinner at Logan's in Dothan.Well they wished me a happy birthday by having me stand on top of a chair so EVERYONE in the place could see me, & then had them yell Yee-Haw! I was very nervous & shaking a little the entire time while atop the chair. But it was fun anyway. :) I'll put up pictures of my cake later. Until then...


Live Life

It All Started About 3 Years Ago...

So...I have Diabetes. I don't remember if I've already mentioned it before, so if I haven't....now you know.I was diagnosed when I was 16, during marching band season. I'm pretty sure the date was August 27, 2006. I had been feeling weak and tired prior to actually finding out what was really happening. I remember not being able to butter my toast the morning before getting diagnosed. That was pretty scary. Anywho...so when I found out the next morning, I started crying. I was thinking, "why me?", "What did I do wrong?" , and so on. After the whole shock factor calmed out a little, I told myself, "Hey, I can take control of this. I've got the power!" So I did quite well for awhile. And then one day it seemed, I just stopped. I didn't want to face the reality that I had Diabetes. Didn't want to stick myself anymore. Didn't want to take another shot. When this happened, everything went down hill. I would lie about where my blood sugars were, not take any shots or glucophage(pill), & wouldn't check my blood sugars. I just ate whatever I wanted & didn't do anything else. That was a HUGE no-no. I was put in the hospital for a couple of days. When I got out, I did what I was suppose to & everything was good. Well, then I would go back to the "not going to deal with it" phase. (Ugh! Even now I start to cry because I feel SOOO stupid for royally screwing up.) So in the past 2 years I've been in the hospital 2 or 3 times(can't remember which) because I didn't want to deal. Well, now I am trying to get back on track with my Diabetes. I really need to take care of myself. I want to live past 25 or 30. So I need to start checking my blood sugar everytime I eat something, take the correct amount of insulin and exercising. I'm going to try really hard to get everything in line now.

I just checked my BGL ( Blood Glucose Level ) & it's 67. That's low for me, so I'm going to have some popcorn and hopefully it will bring it up to a good level. If not, I'll find some sugar drink & only have a little bit.

Anyway, my A1C is currently 9.4, which is still high for a Diabetic. A good A1C is 6 0r even a low 7. I go back to my Endocrinologist February 18 to have a follow up. My goal now is to have my A1C in the 8's. It will be very hard for me because I like the carby stuff, but i know I can do it. With my family & God behind me, I believe I can do it.

I will try to post stuff up showing my progress. PLEASE keep me in your prayers (To whomever actually reads my blogs). And for all the other fellow Diabetics, if you have any advice, words of wisdom, tips, whatever...it would be much appreciated. I feel beside myself in this, because I don't really know anyone else that's in the same little canoe as I am. Well, that is all I guess.

Take care of yourselves & Live Life.

Isn't He Cute?? :)

Are They Trying to Start a Paranoia?

You know they have taken this a little to far when........

Fun Things To Do In The Elevator

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• Make race car noises when anyone gets on or off.


• Blow your nose and offer to show the contents of your Kleenex to other passengers.


• Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering: "Shut up, all of you just shut UP!"


• Whistle the first seven notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.


• Sell Girl Scout cookies


• On a long ride, sway side to side at the natural frequency of the elevator.


• Shave.


• Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside ask: "Got enough air in there?"


• Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear yours upside-down.


• Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.


• When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.


• Lean over to another passenger and whisper: "Noogie patrol coming!"


• Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake and ask them to call you Admiral.


• One word: Flatulence!


• On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the shaft go "plink" at the bottom.


• Do Tai Chi exercises.


• Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then announce: "I've got new socks on!"


• When at least 8 people have boarded, moan from the back: "Oh, not now, motion sickness!"


• Give religious tracts to each passenger.


• Meow occasionally.


• Bet the other passengers you can fit a quarter in your nose.


• Show other passengers a wound and ask if it looks infected.


• Sing "Mary Had a Little Lamb" while continually pushing buttons.


• Holler "Chutes away!" whenever the elevator descends.


• Walk on with a cooler that says "human head" on the side.


• Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce"You're one of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.


• Burp, and then say "mmmm....tasty!"


• Leave a box between the doors.


• Ask each passenger getting on if you can push the button for them.


• Wear a puppet on your hand and talk to other passengers "through" it.


• Start a sing-along.


• When the elevator is silent, look around and ask "is that your beeper?


• Play the harmonica.


• Shadow box.


• Say "Ding!" at each floor.


• Lean against the button panel.


• Say "I wonder what all these do" and push the red buttons.


• Listen to the elevator with a stethoscope.


• Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers that this is your "personal space."


• Bring a chair along.


• Take a bite of a sandwich and ask another passenger: "Wanna see wha in muh mouf?"


• Blow spit bubbles.


• Pull your gum out of your mouth in long strings.


• Announce in a demonic voice: "I must find a more suitable host body."


• Carry a blanket and clutch it protectively.


• Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.


• Wear "X-ray Specs" and leer suggestively at other passengers.


• Stare at your thumb and say, "I think it's getting larger."


• If anyone brushes against you, recoil and holler "Bad touch!"

Quotes....

The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious,
it seems, takes longer. -Edward R. Murrow

A friend is one before whom I may think aloud.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Men are not prisoners of fate, but only prisoners of their own minds.
-FDR

Learn to write your hurts in the sand & to carve your blessings in stone.
-Anonymous

Politics is war without bloodshed. -Mao Tse-tung

Too much agreement kills a chat. -Eldrigde Cleaver

Everybody is ignorant, only on different subjects. -Will Rogers

Impossible is a word to be found in the dictionary of fools.
-Napolean Bonaparte

Fall seven times, stand up eight. -Japanese Proverb

Don't think there are no crocodiles because the water is calm.
-Malayian Proverb

The purpose of life is a life of purpose. -Robert Bryne

All life is an experiment. -Ralph Emerson

Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times. -Anonymous

Es tan corto el amor, Y tan largo el olvido.
(Love is so short, & forgetting is so long.) -Pablo Neruda

I can't take a well-tanned person seriously. -Cleveland Amory

Swallow your pride, you will not die, it's not poison. -Bob Dylan

Shall I crack any of those old jokes, master, At which the
audience never fail to laugh? -Aristophanes

I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with
the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most
important moments. -Jim Morrison

Do vegetarians eat animal crackers? -Unknown

Welcome to the Church of Holy Cabbage. Lettuce pray. -Unknown

Life expectancy would grow by leaps & bounds if green vegetables
smelled as good as bacon. Doug Larson

Fatigue is the best pillow. -Ben Franklin

Consciousness: that annoying time between naps. -Unknown

There is no feeling, except the extremes of fear & grief, that does not
find relief in music. -George Eliot

A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write
if he is to be ultimately at peace with himself.

In music the passions enjoy themselves. -Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

Music is the art which is most nigh to tears & memory. -Oscar Wilde

You are the music while the music lasts. -T.S. Eliot

Music is what feelings sound like. -Unknown

Play the music, not the instrument. -Unknown

The good times of today are the sad thoughts of tomorrow.
-Bob Marley

It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished
work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced.
-Abraham Lincoln

There is no great genius without some touch of madness. -Seneca

Time, the devourer of all things. -Ovid

A cold needs the cook as much as the doctor. -Scottish Proverb

A child may have too much of his mother's blessing.
-Scottish Proverb

What may be done at any time will be done at no time.
-Scottish Proverb

Better be ill spoken of by one before all than by all before one.
-Scottish Proverb