Realization

Hello there fellow readers,

I have finally done it. I have come to the realization that I need help. So I am now seeing a Counselor. Though she is a grief counselor, we talked about some other things. It was quite enlightening. You know how in the movies it's like your under a microscope the whole time? Well, it was actually like talking to a good friend. Which was nice. I found out that I should stop trying to please everyone. To start trying to worry about me. Though it is good that I do that most of the time, which means that I put myself in the other persons shoes, She said that I should stop doing it. I do agree with her, because it is very hard to and sometimes it can become burdensome at times. But I don't like it when people are made at/with me. Now I know that some people might not like for whatever reason, but I just try to be nice to everyone. So anywho, we also talked about relationships. She asked me if I was in a relationship and I told her, "No. I have never really had boyfriend." I told her that I have wished for one, but then I thought and told her that I had gotten a piece of paper that had said, "God will send the man He has for you." So everytime I think "Man! Why can't I have what my friends and almost everyone else has?!" I think of that little piece of paper, which I still have, I'm like, "Ok God, I guess he has just lost the directions and is to stubborn to ask for directions, so that's why it's taking him so long to get here." :) So yeah. I'm just going to try and be patient until he finds me, whomever that maybe. Until next time.