Realization

Hello there fellow readers,

I have finally done it. I have come to the realization that I need help. So I am now seeing a Counselor. Though she is a grief counselor, we talked about some other things. It was quite enlightening. You know how in the movies it's like your under a microscope the whole time? Well, it was actually like talking to a good friend. Which was nice. I found out that I should stop trying to please everyone. To start trying to worry about me. Though it is good that I do that most of the time, which means that I put myself in the other persons shoes, She said that I should stop doing it. I do agree with her, because it is very hard to and sometimes it can become burdensome at times. But I don't like it when people are made at/with me. Now I know that some people might not like for whatever reason, but I just try to be nice to everyone. So anywho, we also talked about relationships. She asked me if I was in a relationship and I told her, "No. I have never really had boyfriend." I told her that I have wished for one, but then I thought and told her that I had gotten a piece of paper that had said, "God will send the man He has for you." So everytime I think "Man! Why can't I have what my friends and almost everyone else has?!" I think of that little piece of paper, which I still have, I'm like, "Ok God, I guess he has just lost the directions and is to stubborn to ask for directions, so that's why it's taking him so long to get here." :) So yeah. I'm just going to try and be patient until he finds me, whomever that maybe. Until next time.

Self-Explanitory

So, this is pretty self-explanitory. Umm, I've had a LOT of time to think about things and I've realized that I screwed somethings up. I want to try and fix them, but I don't know how to approach it. I'm kind of new to this whole "I like you, you like me" sort of thing. I could blame it on not trying to be "girly" enough or having to many guy friends. But that would mean denial. And I'm smarter than that. I guess when I meet this guy I was like "Oh another guy friend", but I started to have feelings for him. And then it went all crazy. My parents said,"He's a little old for you" and my friends said,"Don't give in.Fight for him.". And I'm the kind of person who wants to please everyone, so I tried and it only ended in tears and torn hearts. Gosh!! I want to see him in person and tell him how I feel, but he's in Cali now doing a great service for our country, and I'm here in Florida torn.







I miss the way you sing low
So I can't hear your voice over
The radio in my car
But you knew every word they sang
You know just the right thing to say when the
Distance rips us farther and farther and farther away
I'll see you soon

If you're coming back this way again
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
Are starved for your attention
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
Are starved for your attention

Maybe I fell too fast
Maybe I pushed you away
Now you're gone and I'm afriad
That you're never coming back this away again

I'll see you soon
If you'll come back here
I'll see you soon
Just say that you want to see me too

Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
Are starved for your attention
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
Are starved for your attention

You know I won't mind if you
Monopolize all my time
I won't say a thing at all
I won't say a word no
So come back from California
Come back from California



Song by Copeland