So...I have Diabetes. I don't remember if I've already mentioned it before, so if I haven't....now you know.I was diagnosed when I was 16, during marching band season. I'm pretty sure the date was August 27, 2006. I had been feeling weak and tired prior to actually finding out what was really happening. I remember not being able to butter my toast the morning before getting diagnosed. That was pretty scary. Anywho...so when I found out the next morning, I started crying. I was thinking, "why me?", "What did I do wrong?" , and so on. After the whole shock factor calmed out a little, I told myself, "Hey, I can take control of this. I've got the power!" So I did quite well for awhile. And then one day it seemed, I just stopped. I didn't want to face the reality that I had Diabetes. Didn't want to stick myself anymore. Didn't want to take another shot. When this happened, everything went down hill. I would lie about where my blood sugars were, not take any shots or glucophage(pill), & wouldn't check my blood sugars. I just ate whatever I wanted & didn't do anything else. That was a HUGE no-no. I was put in the hospital for a couple of days. When I got out, I did what I was suppose to & everything was good. Well, then I would go back to the "not going to deal with it" phase. (Ugh! Even now I start to cry because I feel SOOO stupid for royally screwing up.) So in the past 2 years I've been in the hospital 2 or 3 times(can't remember which) because I didn't want to deal. Well, now I am trying to get back on track with my Diabetes. I really need to take care of myself. I want to live past 25 or 30. So I need to start checking my blood sugar everytime I eat something, take the correct amount of insulin and exercising. I'm going to try really hard to get everything in line now.
I just checked my BGL ( Blood Glucose Level ) & it's 67. That's low for me, so I'm going to have some popcorn and hopefully it will bring it up to a good level. If not, I'll find some sugar drink & only have a little bit.
Anyway, my A1C is currently 9.4, which is still high for a Diabetic. A good A1C is 6 0r even a low 7. I go back to my Endocrinologist February 18 to have a follow up. My goal now is to have my A1C in the 8's. It will be very hard for me because I like the carby stuff, but i know I can do it. With my family & God behind me, I believe I can do it.
I will try to post stuff up showing my progress. PLEASE keep me in your prayers (To whomever actually reads my blogs). And for all the other fellow Diabetics, if you have any advice, words of wisdom, tips, whatever...it would be much appreciated. I feel beside myself in this, because I don't really know anyone else that's in the same little canoe as I am. Well, that is all I guess.
Take care of yourselves & Live Life.
